More Descriptions.

     I can tell that you have a lot going on in your life. It almost seems unfair to me, because what you're going through has this detrimental effect on yourself and the people around you. But you're the one who's causing the problem. I will never understand what it is that keeps you from simply letting go of your past. There's obvious potential and you're made to be someone important, someone better than you are now; I just don't think you realize it yet. Despite that, you're a great friend and sometimes I get mad at myself for not being there for you as often. It's so evident that you care, and once you create a relationship with someone you sacrifice your whole self for them. That's something that I absolutely admire and love about you. When I need you you're there, and you somehow know how to make me feel better with just your presence. It's weird and hard to explain, but you seem to care about me just as much as I care about you. For that I can't appreciate it enough, because it's been awhile since I've had someone like that in my life. I just hope you help yourself and realize you were destined to be great sooner rather than later. Later may leave you with a lot more pain that you anticipated.

     I have grown to admire you more and more as I get to know you, but at the same time I have learned about the real you. You're caring and loving and I like that a lot. There's a bit of a lighter mood when I'm around you, except that only happens because you're trying to hide the sadness that's constantly inside. I know that, because I used to do it too. You put on a face for others so that they think you're okay, when in fact you're not. There's been many things that have come your way. I know that you're capable of facing them on their own occurrences, but for some unfortunate reason they all came at you at once. This completely changed you. They say some things get better with time, but for some reason with you, things haven't really changed despite you say they have. Maybe the way you appear is different, but your thoughts remain still. I just hope that as time goes on you realize that people are here to help and listen. Especially that one person who always been there, despite that fact you're progressively losing them with time.

     You're there but not there. I don't know why, but it seems like you're in my life yet a total stranger at times. I guess you've just got your own thing going on. For the longest time I really used to look up to you, but for a certain period I was disappointed. You've misused some people and consistently make these mistakes of hurting others feelings, yet you have no idea. That happens because your head clouds your judgement. Despite this, I know you have good intentions and a caring heart. I'd have to say that you're always alert to others needs and do much for them by sacrificing yourself. That's something that I have to thank you for. From your actions, you've taught me what it's like to be selfless.

     Aesthetically, I find you pleasing. I don't think many people have told you this, and I don't think you know, but you really are. You're personality is something different than anyone I've come across in my life. This reason is because there seems to be a split. At times you are very caring and loving towards others, while other times you can act a bit unreasonable and compulsive. I can tell this happens, because the person you were in the past and the person you want to be now is acting against each other. Oftentimes one becomes more apparent than the other; sometimes its the bad side and sometimes it's the good. For this reason, I can't tell how you view me. I admire when you show that you care and value our friendship, but other times I'm left in the dark. That's why I can't see if you actually like me or not. Especially when it comes to things like jealousy or attention.

   

     

Attention Seekers

     As I watch the people around me, whether they're friends or strangers, it's really easy to point out the attention seekers. I guess in reality almost everyone is an attention seeker. We want people to notice us so we feel worthy, heard, or accepted, but not everyone asks for this in the exact same way. There are different types of people. Some like to ask for attention in an obvious manner while others discretely bring attention upon themselves in order to hopefully get a response. So what I've done is consider the amount of attention needed or asked by a person, and what they do to get it, to come up with 3 distinguished groups accordingly: askers, wanters, and watchers. 

     The askers are your obvious "please pay attention to me" kind of people. They may achieve this by showing themselves off or grabbing people's attention in a way they can't be ignored. They are the definition of the center of attention. Personally, this isn't me at all. Sometimes I find it hard to make theses people sound good, because they seem self centered. As true as that can be sometimes, it's not a definite characteristic of askers but a popular one. And for the record, nothing is wrong with being an asker or any one of these. I guess it just all comes down to motive which is something only we would know inside. Just like there's nothing wrong with being an introvert, extrovert, or a mix there's nothing wrong with being as asker. I felt like this needed to be said because askers have bad reps. Anyways, askers get their high from other people focusing and showing interest in them. If someone else is in their spotlight, then they usually resort to silence or competition. They can either accept that someone else is more interesting than them at the time, or they can try to get the light back on them. Either way, they get what they want, because when you're quiet someone is bound to ask you what's wrong, and if you're loud then people start diverging their attention back to you. It's like a foolproof game plan; they win either way. Except like I said before they still have other defining characteristics which are far greater, but in order to get along with them you have to be the type of person who doesn't care about the spotlight.

     Wanters. These people are the indirect, discreet ones. They oftentimes like to bring up certain things about themselves which may be unique or interesting so that others may ask about it or recognize it. They're the "yeah look at me, and ask me questions about my interesting life" types of people. They're not intentionally trying to get everyone to pay attention, but secretly hoping someone does. As their name says it, they want attention but don't necessarily ask for it. To most people, who aren't as hyper-observive, wanters seem like they're acting normal but I can tell otherwise. I also know for sure because I've been a wanter myself. Wanters greatly rely on their unique or original tendencies. They may make a statement with their style, quirks, or perception of the world that it not very popular/ "mainstream." This thus raises questions or reactions from other people because wanters are different. Their divergence from society, but not all the time, is something that is worth a double take. For me, I find wanters very smart and sly. Their way of attention seeking is effortless and almost natural, and they get exactly what they want.

     Lastly are the watchers. Watchers are the ones who either don't really care about the attention on themselves or don't get it. They find their contentment mostly with other watchers and frequently wanters as well. When it comes to askers, they don't really enjoy themselves as much. It's not because they want the attention on them, but they feel as if they can't enjoy themselves without an equal distribution of attention. Most of the time the reason why watchers don't care about attention is because they have interests in other areas. They have prioritized other things in their life, such as hobbies or sports, and deemed them more important. While this is true, watchers also don't get the attention most of the time too. In this case, watchers are either overpowered by other attention seekers or they're overlooked. Although this sounds unfortunate, watchers are oftentimes looked up to for their disregard to attention overall. But while many watchers may claim to always be watchers, sometimes they have a tendency to trek into wanter territory. So occasionally, not always, they will talk about themselves to raise interest.