Monday, January 18, 2016

Disconnection

     The way you tell me to simply listen and not respond is something that will always test my patience. I desire so much to express what is my defense, but it's bias courtroom; and if words start to spill out of my mouth I'm sentenced. Dramatic comparison? Yeah I think so too.

     I've always longed to communicate my thoughts into words about how the years have made me felt. Frequently I was ignored. Maybe it was due to the craziness which is our lives, or it was simply your diminishing interest in my life. When it came to that I was reasonable, but things never really changed. You know there's a certain numbness that comes with consistency. Over time you grow callouses, which aren't able to remember what created itself in the first place. Unfortunate. 

     In the midst of the disconnection which is our relationship, I still remained understanding. That act became a callous too; frequently finding reasons why you or your acts were rational. Although I still believe you always were, because I see through your tough shell. The identity which desperately desires to be proud and successful. I always do appreciate your effort, although it may not prevail. 

     Sometimes I want to yell, and other times remain distant; but there's conviction that comes from God. For some reason I can't stay mad for more than an hour or so, because over the years He's shown me the gift of forgiveness and the contentment that comes with it.- 

     

Tuesday, January 12, 2016

1/11/16: A Great Goodbye


National Pencil
FRESH seafood 
It was a great day filled with nostalgia,

Renwick
traveling, and amazing seafood. I hadn't seen D'Erika for a week or so, because she went to Buffalo and Pennsylvania like a spontaneous hooligan. It was slightly bitter, but I always liked the way we understood that both of us had grown to make different friends, and have plans that don't always include each other. So as she went about her trip, I stayed home and met with friends/ did my own thing.- But yesterday was amazing. We decided to start her last day early, and spend it together till she had to leave for the airport. It didn't seem like D' had left at all, and things were the way it used to be. It was nice living in the past for a day. But even though I say that, I've also noticed how the both of us have matured and changed. Of course there are still some quirks about each other that remain, but there are also new additions. In D'Erika I see more seriousness and drive, which I think is simply God immensely working in her at college. That place seems to suit her perfectly... Anyways, I always thank God for bringing D' into my life a few years ago. Ever since then I can really see the love that is God, because D' resembled that. We're all created in the image of Him, and so we should always strive to maintain that resemblance wherever we go right? Yes; and that's what I saw in D'Erika. People teach you a lot, and I learned a lot from her. From crazy sleepovers, teenage heartbreaks, and burping in each others ears, one thing I'll always appreciate the most is how much she helped me grow in my faith. Yeah you'll always find more friends in life who'll be good company, but not many will help you mature in the most important way there is. 
Thanks again, and love you

Monday, January 4, 2016

1/2/16: Hiking



     One night I mentioned to Vincent that I wanted to go hiking and he took me up on it; he's like that. Vincent's really good at keeping tabs on what I say sometimes; I'm frequently surprised by him because of it. But anyways, he came up with the great idea to go hiking somewhere an hour or so away, and eat lunch on the top. He packed lunch for us and even made some hot chocolate which he kept in themos'. Dang those things really do work.

     The drive was going to be a while so I came up with a playlist. I named it cold climbing which was exactly what the hike was like once we got there. That playlist is by far my favorite one yet, because I found so many GREAT throwback songs and new recent ones. Also thanks Juliet for some of the songs. I remember a while ago I looked at a couple of your playlists on Spotify, and they were a great inspiration for that playlist. Don't know if  I've told you yet, but you've probably got the best taste of music out of everyone I know - So the drive there Vincent and I collectively shared some stories about our friends and family, made jokes, and listened to this glorious playlist.

     Honestly the climb up was pretty sucky for me. For some reason in my head I remembered hiking to be a mild task, but that day is wasn't. I couldn't really breathe like a normal person and kept stopping. It was pretty embarrassing, but sharing my fails wasn't that bad because I was still having fun talking to Vincent. Even after that experience I'd actually still love to go hiking again, because the view was absolutely breathtaking. That's the real reason I find hiking appealing; there's always something to admire, and the effort is worth it once you get to the top.

     On the top we ate lunch and drank some hot chocolate over nice conversations ranging from our friends, prayer requests, and resolutions; all good topics. Then we progressively made our way down to where our car was, and tried to look for some other places to venture off to. Or as Vincent would call them: "nooks and crannies." He likes to think of himself as an old man, and at that moment he reaffirmed himself. I found it absolutely hilarious.

     We actually did find a really nice spot with a rock that peaked off the edge a little bit. We were able to dangle our feet and enjoy the view. It was still cold, but not too bad to where it was unbearable. The both of us carried on with our conversations, and I asked him what dessert he would be if he could be one. He answered with coconut creme pie. It's pretty ironic cause he doesn't even like coconut! But apparently he had some pie a while ago and it was really really good. He also doesn't like pickles, twizzlers, and salt and vinegar chips; the holy of all food. I still don't know how we get along with that but it works out somehow.

     Later on we drove back and talked in the car for a while once we got home. Our nights always seem to end in late night car talk which I honestly love. I think I learn the most during them. That was the best one yet. Jamming to Christian music while talking about fun things we could do next time was a highlight; among other things too-

   

Friday, January 1, 2016

A New Trend

     I used to blog more about events that I shared with my friends and family and I miss that. Nowadays I seem to only write about random deep thoughts that favor my liking, and I deem worthy enough to talk about on this blog. But now that seems exclusive, and I should "broaden my horizons right?" Of course. So from now on I'm sure to include a little more about my memories rather than just my opinions. 

     Happy 2016 and God bless,